Metal topic? (partly for Booch)

Thanks man, I was running through Netflix trying to figure out which one it was. It was the first episode I saw YEARS back when staying over my grandparents' house with my cousin and he turned it on... Funniest crap ever. That scene made me laugh so hard, but my favorite part had to have been when Cartman was checking in with the lady at the front desk and they ask his condition... "I dunno I'm retarded derrrrr". LOL!! Too funny...

And here's some more good stuff I found:

 

hahaaha yeah Cartman's mom was all "Sweetie, what condition do you have?" and he looks at her and is all "Derrr how should I know, I'm retarded!" hahahhaah

That was pretty good. A little slow for my mood right now, but heavy as shit!

Here's some good stuff too: Off their new album:

 

Haha, definitely man... I freaking loved that episode. I got lucky and ran across the other one I was looking for (the ballchinitis one) while randomly skimming episodes last night.

And I need the absolute best songs you've got. My music hasn't been hitting me like it has been lately, and I need some amazing stuff to get through.

 

Check the ones above for darkest hour stuff. I'm surprised you don't like them very much, they are right up your alley it seems.

Other songs:

 

Almost fairly positive today is going to be the stupidest f*cking day ever.

 

Have to put up with interviewees all day, my son hates me and is scared of me now, and my wife is on the verge, possibly passed the verge, of wanting to get a divorce. Like I said, probably the stupidest god damn day ever.

 

Man that sucks... hoping all works out alright for ya man.

As for the music you posted last night, if kicks a-- ! I've been listening to Kingdom Nevercome and Behold the Harlot all day, and ill probably download some stuff from The blood Brothers when I get home. I think the music not hitting me the same is just a phase... my mind goes through these weird week or two phases where either I get a weird taste for emerging I usually hate or kinda lose taste for something I love... so ill just wait this out. In the meantime, gonna listen to more of that stuff you posted.

 

Yesterday I got home from work, I was really really tired. I was feeding my son dinner and my wife asked me how my day was. "Long and arduous" I replied. "I can't wait till Ian goes to bed so we can relax". I finish feeding my son and my wife takes him in and gets him ready for a bath. Little did I know (and didn't find this out untill later) that when I told her that I couldn't wait for Ian to go to bed, this pissed her off... bad. Without saying anything, as I am trying to help her out with everything taking care of him, she continuously said "I got it. Go relax or something". After hearing this several times, I started getting a little irritated. When Ian was done with his bath, I took him and started drying him off, despite the fact that my wife kept telling me "I got it" I continued, shrugging her off. She huffed and puffed and went into the living room, finally letting me continue with Ian. When I was done, I went out into the living room and she took him from me. And proceeded to leave the house so we could go next door to her grandmothers house to eat. As she was leaving I asked "So what is the problem...?" and she said "You talking to me like that for one" and slammed the door in my face. Rule of thumb with me, if you slam the door in my f*cking face, I am going to get f*cking pissed at you. We go over to her grandmothers house and I am furious. I was patient and tolerant all up untill this point. We get to her grandmothers house and we put Ian in his toy stand, and I quickly scarf down my little portion of food so I can get him. I got done, got him out and left the house. Got home, cooled off, and started chasing Ian around the living room (playing with him) and my wife gets home, and takes him. Once again I get furious. I wait as she begins making a bottle for him to go to bed. I am sitting near a recliner and like i said, I am furious. She comes over and tells me "You look really funny pouting like that"... so I get enraged. I get up and I walk over to my cigarettes before I start yelling. Ian walks over to me and wants me to pick him up, so I do. My wife then tells me "There is no reason to be mad, this is all my fault" and I blew up. I started yelling at her that this was her f*cking fault, I did nothing at all, and she was treating me like shit and was acting like a complete bitch. Meanwhile, my son started crying and gestering towards my wife, and he started freaking out.... little did I realize that I blew up and began yelling at her with him in my arms. I totally felt like a guilty piece of shit and left the house to go smoke a cigarette and walk away. But no Christa comes out and begins starting more shit. And starts all this BS. All I wanted was a cigarette.

Skipping a lot of stupid shit.

I lay Ian down and he goes to bed, I lay him in his crib and he goes to sleep. I walk out in the living room and she starts bitching at me some more. She goes on telling me that I have no right to tell her that I can't wait till Ian goes to bed because I don't put up with him all day. I sit on my ass at a desk job and do nothing. Appearantly. I begin telling her that she acts like she is entitled to shit and she gets mad at me for that. I'm done typing all of this for now.

My son hates me now, because I woke up this morning and tried to get him out of his crib and he freaked out. His mom was holding him and I went to grab him to lay him down and he practically ran from me. He was doing everything he could so that I wouldn't even touch him. I've never felt like more of a piece of shit in my entire life. I got a kiss out of him before I left from work, so maybe there's hope... but for now I'm pretty much less than dirt to him.

Edit: I can only assume he is scared of me cause I yelled. I was totally in the wrong on everything. It is all my fault.

 

Like Balu' said (easier to quote his post), its one fight. If you guys resolution over eachother (this I gonna sound corny) it'll work out. Every relationship has its problems, everyone has bad days, but they all come to an end. Blast some music and don't let it get to you.

And don't fake this the wronway, but your son's probably a bit freaked out about what happened last night. Little kids tend to side with their mothers more anyway... again, don't let it get to you. Hell come around soon... Watching parents fight can scare the crap out of a kid.

 

It's one fight yeah, but we have fought several times before, just not in front of Ian. She feels underappriciated, and I do everything I can to make her and let her know she is appriciated (on a regular basis, almost daily). So I must be doing something wrong, also I need to get a different job and haven't put as much effort into getting one as I need to. I know it needs to be done, but I try and focus on other shit too, at least I have a god damn job. But that isn't good enough. Not at all. She doesn't want to deal with it anymore.

And I know fights around a kid can scare the crap out of them, I was one of them. My parents fought in front of my all the time. I don't want my son growing up with that and yet I am doing the very thing my father did. It's ****ing pathetic.

 

Yeah, no worries, he is just confused because the doesn't saw you acting like this before and even more, he was (accidentally) drawing into the fight of you.
But he doesn't hate you... I even guess he can't understand the principle of hate right now.

Sit down, relax, speak with your son. Even if he won't understand you, he'll know from your gestures and the sound of your voice that the argument wasn't directed or because of him.

I mean, we're all on the hard side of life and music but we also have f*cking soft hearts. Talk about your worries with your wife. Stay calm even if she starts freaking out. Tell her about your worries. There's nothing in the world people can't talk about.

 

I agree man. She is actually texting me right now talking more shit. But I am trying to stay calm and collected even though she is trying to push my buttons. That's just the kind of person she is. Not to sound emo or anything, but when we fight, she drives me to the point where I literally just want to kill myself. It's awful. Any other time is absolutely joy, but when we fight, it's absolutely rediculous.

 

I can't even listen to music all day (have to deal with interviewees). I shouldn't even really be on here but I make do. I don't really care anymore at this point.

 

Get a grip...

You're male. Sure you have feelings like anger and stuff, but you also have a cool, logic side in your personality.
Don't show a weakness, stay nice and friendly. Best way to break her out of her mindset. That would make you a winner. If you act like her now by freaking out, you're the loser.

I fully understand you. I know how you feel.
My son is 14 months right now and my fiancee stay at home for a year.
I went through roughly the same things as you. Coming home after a hard day of work and coming into other obligations.
But my son taught me one thing: to stay calm. Since I've been acting like this, the situation got better and better and is now, after 14 months better than ever before.

I stayed at home for 2 months (until yesterday), too - and that made me helping understand my fiancee... making all homework while watching the kid is a full time job. You can't just say: hey! cigarette break, 10 minutes time-out!... It doesn't work like that. You have to keep an eye on him all day. It is mentally exhausting, but it was also very satisfying to have my son around me all day for two months. Nonetheless, in the evening, you're done, finished and tired, because you had to be on guard all day. Try to take this into account.

 

I mean't I can't listen to music or anything or shouldn't be on here cause I am at work, and have interviews going on today. Notbecause i am pissed off.

I appriciate what you said, trust me. But I do take all of this into account. Believe me, I know no one works harder than my wife. Watching a kid is a full time job. When we first had Ian, she watched him 4 days out of the week, and I basically watched him the other 3 (since I worked 4/10's) so I know how it is. It's exhuasting. And breaks are very slim, and thats only when the significant other comes home to relieve you for a few minutes. Now that i work and she stays at home, it's compltely different. But I do anything and everything to amke sure she and the baby is taken care of. I also take into consideration my wife is really sick. She doesn't have very good health these days, and that makes it harder for her. All of this I take into complete and total account. But yet what I do is still not good enough. I still don't have a great job (I have one that isn't bad, but not the best). It's not easy around these parts to find jobs at entry level, I have no post high school education degree or anything, so it's kinda hard.

Anyways, I still do everything I can to relieve her of Ian when i get home, when I come home from lunch (half of the time I don't even get to eat lunch, but that's fine...) and I get up with him at night the majority of the time, I get up with him in the middle of the night when he doesnt feel like sleeping and just wants to play. I do all of that so she can get some rest, you know why? Because I know in the bottom of my heart that she does way more than I do when it comes to taking care of him. So I feel I have a moral obligation to help out no matter what the cost, be it sleep, money, alone time, etc. But she still feels unappricaited. Do you get my problem now? I am shit out of f*cking answers. And you may not know it from writing on here, but I am one of the most cool, calm and collected people you will ever meet. Sometimes I stay calm in situations that call for me to be angry and alert or whatever. It's just my nature. It's really rare that I blow up on someone or anyone. I am just not like that. It does happen though.